SO TIRED OF CRYING

I had started a post about my grandfather earlier this week. It was his 88th birthday on the 23rd of February. I couldn't find the picture I wanted to post so I didn't put it up...Last night he died. This is my mom's dad. She was out there for his birthday and she just got home on Monday. I think he was just waiting for her to be there for his birthday and then he let go. I don't really know what to say. I'm upset over a stupid blog. He use to read it and while my mom was there he sent me and email about how much he enjoyed reading my blogs and seeing pictures. I wanted to honor him on his birthday...now I don't get to. He won't get to see it. I'm not going to lie I am so over this. It's to much. I'm sick of crying... my eyes hurt. He was old and it was his time to go...but I'm still sad and I miss him. I'm tired so tired. I feel like yelling and yet I'm at work and I have a meeting in 30 minutes I need to pull it together. I just don't feel like it! Blah